Things change

Instead of a current post, here's something I wrote a few months ago:


After 33 years, I am no longer married.  Sadly, it was never a complete union, where 2 souls completed each other.  There’s enough blame to be shared by both of us as to why it finally broke completely, but God has been merciful in the way He has revealed things to me.  A little at a time, with His loving arms around me, He has hugged, carried, patted, held and led me through this surreal time.  Most of the time I feel like a small child, reaching up to hold my Father’s hand, trusting that He knows where we’re going, and knows which path we need to be on.

My 4 grown children and my 3 grandsons have taken this family transition amazingly well.  There was some initial angst, then they settled back in to just being.  They look to me for steadiness and a listening ear, like they always have, and they seem to accept the reality that daddy/grandpapa is not able to be there for them.  I tell them it’s God’s job to work on each of us, and that He will send whatever circumstances we each need in life to make us more like Him.  He is a good God, and He knows us so well, because He made us.

Peace reigns in our home now.  Right now, it’s a Saturday morning, and I’ve got the three grandsons for the weekend, as I do most weekends.  Caleb (6) and Evan (7) have been pretending intensely for hours.  They are in sync with their role playing, and go from one pretend world to another without missing a step.  Cameron (11), who lives with me, is off on his bike, finding his homies for some Saturday fun.  He’ll pop in and out and boss his little brothers around, or share some of his vast knowledge with them.

So many verses have jumped off the pages of my Bible lately.  I printed and framed Psalm 4:8 above my bed, because “I will both lie down in peace and sleep; For You alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.”  And Zephaniah 3:17 fills me with such joy - “He will rejoice over you with singing…”  Wow!  The God of heaven sings over me!  The Psalms were my daily companion for weeks, and the Book of Hebrews is such a comfort.  I’m reading Proverbs and Ecclesiastes for wisdom and perspective, and I have a couple of devotional books that feed my soul.  God is so good!